Almost 4 years ago

Almost 4 years ago, just weeks before my website was online, my computer crashed. I just took my second course in Microsoft Front Page, while I was on holidays for the summer. I was planning on, finally, putting my site online. After so much work and mistakes I made, which forced me to redo so much work and typing. (I often learn things the hard way.I'll get there eventually, I hope!) During those few weeks without my computer my plans were put on hold. One night I couldn't sleep. The idea of a novel ran through my head until 4 in the morning. I never wrote a novel before. I spent more time in my early 20s writing children's stories and articles but not novels. I hadn't even planned on writing a novel but the idea kept running through my head, and it ran like a movie. 'How fortunate for me,' You might think, but I'm sure writing a novel is going to be much more work than I can even imagine. It's a paranormal story...I don't read those kinds of novels nor do I watch those kinds of movies. So, why was this film projecting in front of my eyes...or in my brain, I just don't know! My older son, Will, writes paranormal comics. I decided that I would need Will's help if I chose to write this book. My younger son, Scott, writes romances. He didn't write them back then but he's my very logical son. I thought I would need both of their help. I spoke to them about it the next day and they just loved the idea. Writing a novel together sounded like fun. I was thinking of what quality time we'd have together while writing together. It would be fun, published or not. We decided to write this book. 'Forever Ends.' Will and Scott helped me with the characters and the names' of the characters. That took a very long time and we kept changing our minds...One of the male character's name was changed 4 times, his career as well. I finally picked a log cabin builder for Ryan, the male character. At the time, at the museum, we were planning on offering log cabin building workshops for the people in Northern Manitoba. The instructor wanted to teach people how to build cabins. It sounded exciting and I planned to take part, observe and take notes for my book. It sounded like a good idea at the time. The instructor moved to another province a few months before the workshops began. I'll have to do research another way, I thought. I know a log cabin builder in Wabowden, 1 1/2 hours away from Thompson. Perhaps I'll talk to him. I knew I couldn't write this book without Will and Scott help...and now even Mike's help. Will has this idea of a second book, written by him and a third, written by Scott. I've always thought that that would be so cool to accomplish. However, I slowed down with my writing as well as my website since I got married, a year and half ago. There's still another dream though, an even more important dream. A dream for my family's future. Again, I'll write about that one later. I was planning on waiting until 2011 before writing again because I felt I'd be too busy with this really big dream...Can I do everything at once? The website, extra baking and cooking, the novel, this big dream? I think I'm losing my mind! I've always given myself too many projects all at once. Maybe the website and the novel will help with my big dream...or will it slow everything down and I won't work as hard on my big dream. Maybe I'm trying to self sabotage....maybe I've always done this? I'm going to have to try and balance everything out. I'm not good at balancing things.

The Geocache I'm putting on hold, at least! I thought of a Geocache to advertize my site, but the big dream involves moving out of the province. So I'll wait until after the move before I do the Geocache. At least that's one less crazy idea that I'll fulfilling now.

More on that later...