So many forks in the road...

I wish I had had time to write in the last couple of months. It would be evident to anyone who might read this that I am truly certifiable...keep reading and I think you'll agree.

I've been getting way over my head with future plans and my new big dream. Like always, I want so much and I want it right now...I keep thinking, 'I should slow down, learn more, plan better, investigate, research, do some marketing and...breathe.'

A few months ago we were planning to move to Ontario. We were all excited and afraid. We were hoping to buy a book store..."crazy right?" We'd like a book store as a family business. A book store is my big dream. I've been wanting to do this for years. "Is this the worst idea anyone ever came up with? Especially right now?"

Years ago I was wondering, 'What would be a good job for all of us (the boys and I?) I had been a single mom for many years. Will, Scott and I are physically disabled. Certain jobs aren't even an option for us. Will (21) doesn't drive. I don't think he'll ever be able to. Scott (17) doesn't drive either. Hopefully he will someday. I had thought a book store would be a great business for all of us. We could publish our own books. We could enjoy being surrounded by books. Physically we could all run a book store. It seemed like a good idea at the time...

I'm not taking a business class, maybe I should. If I have time, I'll take a class this fall. I have two manuals on how to open and run a book store. I'm reading them now. Hopefully the books will be a big help.

What if now is not a good time to have a book store? What if someday people stop buying real books? What if ebooks and the internet is all anyone ever wants/needs? I hope books don't became extinct! That would be so sad...Kindles, Sony Readers, Ipads and such sound cool and I like using the internet for a lot of things but...no real books at all? I wouldn't want that.

It's summer now. I'm in Ontario. We haven't moved yet...we decided to wait another year. Where we want to move (in the North-West part of Ontario) is not doing so well, economically. It looks promising that things will get better. We just have to wait awhile. We're also debating on what or where to go if our ideal spot doesn't pan out. We've been researching and visiting other places that might be a suitable home and a great place to have a book store. Perhaps Selkirk. Maybe Portage La Prairie. Brandon (I think they're opening a Cole's book store soon.) Neepawa. Dauphin. We'll see what we can do...