The road I've travelled has at least led me to where I am now

On the long drive home, after our summer trip, just 3 hours from Thompson; I felt sad. I had remembered so many wasted years. So much had gone wrong. A lot of bad decisions. Decisions that I had made or were forced to make for one reason or another. So many regrets. How I wished I could do it over again. I had almost cried. Thinking of what a waste my life had been. Perhaps I was depressed because, originally, we were planning on moving…Now we were on our way home. Maybe I was just tired of being on the road. Not sure. I had looked over at my husband. My husband of 2 years and I started to understand that if my life hadn’t rolled out exactly the way it had I wouldn’t have met him. I wouldn’t be married to him. Right at that moment I felt grateful for my past. It wasn’t always that bad. Often I was in the right place at the right time and things had just worked out perfectly. Sometimes I felt I was pretty lucky.

Thank God everything worked out the way it did. Hopefully I will have more luck coming my way. My son, Will thinks Mike is our lucky charm. I think he’s my angel that dropped from heaven and landed right in front of me. I will never give back.

September 4th and 5th I went back to work at the museum. It’s been 2 months since I’ve worked there. It went well though. The following Wednesday, September 8th I went back to work at the school. I’ve had such a great summer. I didn’t want it to end. It’s been such a busy summer, as always. I hadn’t even achieved half of the work I had wished to accomplish. I think I plan and hope for way too much. Now I have so much to do between now and next summer. I won’t get it all done. I might as well face the facts and accept the truth. I bet the next 9 months or so will just fly by. Is that a good thing or bad? Someday I may want time to slow down. Someday. My disability is progressive. The only way I can slow it down is by working harder. Giving more. Learning more. Speeding up. I have to keep my brain active as well. So, to slow down some things I have to speed other things up.